Its been some time since I wrote a post... Some how I wait for my posts to inspire me to nudge my inner "wanna be" writer to pen down or type in what I feel .
Since yesterday morning more like 15th late evening I have been humming this song... (ek bar dekho hazar bar dekho)
My dadi used to complain about getting a headache when ever shammi kapoor's movie or a song was being telecast. She used to say "iska sar ek jagah par nahin rukta this continuous movement gives me headache". well that was entirely her opinion...for most he was effervescent, charming , versatile, sexy , flamboyant, india's own creed of oh so stylish men who make it all look so easy.
Here is what shammi was to an 18yr old girl.... a pen pal . My first brush with celeberity... I remember this was some time in 95-96 when i got access to internet far far away from home and was very keen to "get connected" but alas no one i knew had internet connection forget about email account.
One of those quiet rainy evenings when i suppose to be studying but was surfing the net i looked up my dream man "shammi kapoor" and the info highway led me to the "home page of the original JUNGLEE" . Took me a while to establish that this was the real shammi creating his own site and needless to say i had to write to him and let him know i visited .
I dont exactly recollect the first email but i do know i was using my college mate's university account id.
I guess i mentioned in my mail that i was an indian student in Australia and that i think he is a living legend n that i am homesick its tuff i wanna give up n the typical psuedo student babble. .. once i was done with a paragraph i thought enuff said its time to conclude the email as it is he might not even read it forget about acknowledging the same.
It so happens I forgot that innocence cuts through and not only did i get an acknowledgment but also a full fledged 2 paragraph reply telling me to hang on, be strong, to realise the importance of the opportunity given to me and do full justice to it else I will feel i cheated my self and that started a 6 month long exchange of emails between a Super super super great person and me. It have never met Shammi kapoor and may be he would not have remembered me but thats the thing about being genuine and warm you dont even realise... what kind of vibes you are sending and how comforting it can be for those who are seeking comfort. I am glad I have his email printouts i have kept them to remind my self of life and people who touch your existence in simple ways and become part of your memory bank. I do remember once I got a reply after a week and in it he had mentioned " sandy do not worry U will always get a reply from me although due to hectic life style it might be delayed but I will always reply... (somethings u never put to test because they resonate truth just as they are said).....
I stopped writing once I graduated the idea was not to suck up to a celebrity but it was a need to b comforted when I was alone in a foreign land....after getting used to the new place people and lifestyle communication with a celebrity seemed unrealistic so it slowly and gradually stopped..... but it had already connected me to him and now he was part of my personal group till date he is and always will be.
Shammi kapoor walked right out of my Mills&Boons imagination and I wanted to fall in love with someone with such qualities .. at least now i Know Mills&Boons is not all fiction ;) Men can be fatally charming and so effortlessly loveable .
on 14th August 2011 (5:30 am) i guess I lost a virtual frnd who promised to reply whenever he heard from me and I will just take his word for that.
TAALI Ho ho ho!!!
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