I am not .....

I am not ungrateful; I am just unhappy
I have not failed; it’s just my expectation from self were too high

I am not lonely; it’s just that solitude is all I have

I am not stubborn; it's just I don’t know any better

I am not cynical; it’s just I can not unlearn the bitter lessons

I am not without focus; but then what will I do once I get there

I am not self-centered; but that is all I am left with

I am not quiet; but where are the people

I am not against companionship; but all who understood me are gone

I am not against sunshine; but my heart is filled with darkness

I am just me and sometimes I feel that’s not enough for ME
I am not negative; it's just this poem starts with I am not.....