Frandships n more ....

Sunscreen song from Baz Luhrman talks about life, the lyrics hit home every time it plays. As one goes through the process of life we come across so many individuals, every body has a role to play. Sometimes it’s hard to connect with the current surroundings. As a child all we do is wait to turn into adults and sometimes the transition is very subtle at times its very abrupt.
When does one starts taking a call and being responsible for their actions. Planning a trip abroad, investments, deciding on buying a car, a house, taking decisions, so on n so forth. There is no end to it... I guess. I remember the first official decision I ever took was to go abroad for my "further" studies and once I boarded the plane I just wanted to get off that plane and run back to mommy & daddy, its then I realized that now am responsible for my decisions; too much effort, money and hope has been invested and there is no turning back for me.

Sometimes when we feel disconnected with the present, it’s the past that reaches out to us and helps us get reacquainted with our roots, or give us a sense of direction. It’s always nice to know that there are still a handful of people who were there when one started dreaming, planning, and was getting all excited about the life ahead. Somehow these people connect with us at a very grass root level, a level which is still very raw, and "U".

I always used to think how would it feel to have friends for years together; most of my childhood was spent shifting schools, home, places thanks to my parent’s choice of profession. I enjoyed moving around to newer places, meeting different people, understanding new culture... literally speaking "Ghat ghat ka paani piya hua hai" and what lovely ghats. Anyway coming back to the point I never really did think I would be around the same set of friends for long.

For a person who has lived a childhood full of social activity in the state of Uttar Pradesh, living in a metropolitan city does take its toll. Last two months had been full of erratic feelings, sometimes emptiness, at times extreme joy, mostly very disconnected and disjointed existence, I felt as if I am reaching the edge of Nowhere.
Then one day in the middle of the dull boring afternoon, I get a call from a friend and one is reconnected with their self, their past, all of a sudden Iwas buzzing with life. A phone call away was my existence, it tells me where i am heading and what do I have to work for... I am going home to my roots, I am going to lie under the starlit sky, think of "waglae ki duniya", with a bonfire around me, lots of night noise, or it could be warm afternoons, spreads of freshly washed grain all around, the familiar smell of wet earth, listen to radio, and enjoy the long power cuts and careless bantering under the big Neem tree with frands I love, I miss and want to share my existence with.